Drown in my own Tears (Crushed by the flood)

If I drown in my own tears what would the cost be tonight?
If I followed my own advice would this then feel alright?
Everything is bubbling inside me like a volcano
And I know what I’M feeling but what would they know?
They try to tell me that it’s not alright
When I know what’s right for my life

For every negative emotion I am as free as a bird
Everything your throw at me I’ll pretend I never heard
Once words leave your mouth they then reflect the past
So I will file all of your bullshit right here in the trash
Do you get the picture?
Is it clear enough?
I wouldn’t want to confuse you
Am I coming off a little rough?

It’s ok poor baby, mama will be home soon
Just go play with your toys up in your room
Oh you don’t like being talked to like a kid
Here’s some spilled milk, take a look at what you did
You won’t clean up your mess
So I have this fear in my chest
I need arms to wrap around me
But you’re toxic so get the hell from around me

I am not helpless or a charity case
I just need for you to get the F out of my face
I am starting to believe I could live without a conscious
Because if I let the water flow you all would have lost it
You all could be burned by the fires from hell
So that burning skin you detect is your own god awful smell.
There are bones piled up high in your closet
And you are telling me that I should be the one to forfeit?
I am trying to be cool but you aren’t making this to easy
I stay quiet so if I really told you this you never would believe me.

So if I drown in my own tears would it be just what you need?
So that YOUR conscious will begin to intercede.
I just need to know that you are on my side
But I don’t feel it so I will drown in my own tears tonight.