Empty Room

I believe that I am not alone in this world
But I know that I am alone in my head
Everything in which I have come to depend
Has swiftly withdrawn its giving type hand
I am not asking for a hand out just a little help up
My brain is tired so I am just a little stuck.

Why does this always happen to me
You shake up my world and let me walk blindly
You take my sunshine away so that I wither in the cold
and you leave me lonely at night with no one to hold.

I figure or I guess it is because you are trying to teach me to be strong
But I don't know how long that I can just keep on keepin on

This world is a disaster and my life a mess
In my forceable future I see a frozen heart buried in my chest
Someone will eventually chizzle it out
Then I will know the feelings I am dreaming about
Then I will know that this world has some hope
Instead of being left behind begging and broke.

I don't want be desparate but I desparately need a way out
I can see my way up
And I don't want to look down
I can fall on my face
But when no one is around
Because I don't want the world to see me frown
I don't want to let the whole world down.
I can live this life but I am a little scared
I'm screaming in a room but no one is there.

You won't find it here

"If you are looking for answers you won't find them here"
She said
"....things have been strange and quite frankly weird this year"

I have been struggling with destiny lately
And I'm scared she's beginning to hate me
I find peace in time with her
But her constant frown always makes me wonder

Dave Matthews spoke of a space between
But I never thought that space would need to lie between her and me
The void lies there weighing heavy on us like a mountain range
As my hands sweat, my heart beats faster, and my mind races I now understand the word insane

"If you are looking for answers you won't find them here"
She said
"....I won't tell you yes because this is something I have come to fear"

I must be a powerful man because I can cause people to turn from love to hate
And I can make people believe that they should doubt their fate
God did bless me with an amazing talent and I aim to please
I know, I KNOW I have to find a way to cure this disease

I wrestle around with the obvious philosophies hoping to find hope
I live my life contently hanging on to your rope.....
Which actually is not a rope at all but our relationship life line
I know that we will get better with time just like the taste of a fine wine.

"I feel sick to my stomach and no one understands me"
She said
I understand you, and this is something that I want you to see.

What is meant to be will be
What we understand we will learn from
And how we live today will determine how we welcome tomorrow.

I welcome you and whatever may happen in my tomorrow….

Sleeping Alone

As I am walking down a wooded path
You decide to follow me like you're lost and looking for a way home
You look at me as if I know where I am going
I don't...

We walk without saying a word
Frustration builds up inside of you
Now everything I do makes you angry
If something goes wrong you blame me
You say that you know that this isn't ALL my fault
But you want to be the one who brings things to a halt
Ok......
I get that.

I know that I am the snow ball that turned into an avalanche
I know that if I didn't mess up we would have a better chance
YOU know that we are picking debris up along the way
We look at each other now with nothing left to say
And that is how it ends....
Just like that
Almost 3 years of fun
Begins to fade to black.....

Is our lack of luster that has gotten us lost?
Or was my dishonesty to high of a cost...
We didn't plan for trouble...it wasn't in our budget
Do you care how I feel?.....No? Ok then, Fuck it!

Traffic

They try to tell you which way to go
But you don’t want to follow them
You want to find your own way out, through this mess
You find yourself stuck behind
An old lady driving too damn slow
But you dare not honk for fear that you may startle her
This is so ridiculous I am going to be so late
To my next appointment, to my next blessing in life
They said it was free
Something called a handout??

If I told you everything was OK
Would you take it in blind faith?
And just believe me? I tell no lies you know you want to
Take a bite of the apple
Take the back roads and coast through life
But you’re too much of a chicken, test me, won’t you, you want to, please do!
Should I turn here?
Or should I cut the lights off and coast into the darkness