There is a rage that is burrowing deep inside of me however instead of trying to go deeper it is trying to find its way to the light. With the a ravenous hunger it claws its way slowly to the surface. How do I deal with this rage that is masked as a lot of things so that it does not become something that overwhelms me. I don't really want to be a victim of circumstance however I don't really want to ponder the banes of my existence either.
I sat driving in the car and news troubled me to no end. Anxiety kicks in and along with my sweaty hands my heart starts racing but out of anger. This anger made my head spin at a millions miles per hour and honestly I didn't want to leave my room. "It's not always as bad as it may seem," which is what I kept thinking to myself. You can't let your insecurities eat you up inside so bad that your entrails are unrecognizable. I have come to discover this simply because being insecure does you no good. There is nothing that you can say that is worth a dime that comes out of being insecure. The only gifts left by this wicked witch is feeling of depression and emptiness that is also accompanied in the door with a ferocious lack of sleep.
How can these feelings be so powerful? How do these feelings help YOU? Regardless of what you may believe this is not good for you and none of what you are insecure about matters in the end. Every emotion that you are harboring will decay away with the remains of your corpse inside of your pretty wooden box.
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